Sleep to Dream
so i am known to have really weird dreams. usually they involve people i know and some outlandish situations. for instance i once woke up and starting crying because i had a dream patrick was going to push me off a building and he woke me up by nudging me. i had a dream about a week ago that patrick's coworkers drugged him in the parking lot of our apartment complex and he got arrested. i used to have a reoccurring dream that my brother turned into a rat at night and was plotting to kill me and my parents with his rat army. flying, coughing out your teeth, terrorists blowing you up, burglars i've had them all.

last night i had a dream and it is still creeping me out. i had a dream that our apartment was infested with cockroaches. now i'm not a girl that freaks out when she sees a bug so imagine it had to have been bad. they were all over and ashley (one of the studio owners i work for) was in it. she was telling me that the reason they were there was because i had food all over the place. there were mushy melons and fruit on the counter. for some reason there were bread sticks on the floor under the cabinet and tons of crumbs. however not as bad as the floor at pacific winds. ugh boys are messy. the cockroaches were everywhere and there were little ones and big ones and for some reason i was trying to put them in a bag of cotton balls or fiber fill i don't know what it was. while i was putting them in the bag i thought i didn't want to wast the cotton so i ripped a hole in the bag at the bottom and starting pulling it out. it was one of those dreams where it was so realistic you wake up confused. the apartment looked exactly the same except it's not that dirty in real life and the living room was arranged opposite of how it is in real life. the best part was when patrick gave me a kiss before he left for work i jumped and slapped my mouth cause i guess i thought it was a cockroach on my face.

now i am a freudian so i believe that dreams have meanings. i have a dream dictionary i think i got from delia's when i was in junior high. it's not very good-nothing about cockroaches. i did find this online though:

"When dreaming about these dreaded insects, the unconscious mind may be hinting to the dreamer that he needs to reevaluate and reassess a major part of his life. There is never just one roach; thus, the areas of life that need cleansing and renewal may be deep and wide. The negativity or contamination that is represented by the roaches may affect a great deal of your life. Thus, this may be a call to clean your psychological, emotional, and spiritual self. (Also, examine your motives!) On a less dramatic note, cockroaches in our dreams may be associated with food and uncleanliness, so don't leave the dishes for tomorrow!"

well patrick maybe if you did the dishes in the sink i wouldn't have scared you this morning when i wigged out in your face.

song lyrics of the day:
no one wants to hear
what you dreamt about unless you dreamt about them
don't let that stop you
tell them anyway