ok i need help. you may or may not know but i'm living in washington currently. i miss my family sooo much. i'm trying to decide if i should stay in washington to be with patrick or if i should go home and potentially not see patrick until may. now i did find an apartment that i like and the price isn't too steep and i'm supposed to sign the lease on friday. i'm freaking out. i can't stop doubting myself. my plan yesterday was to only stay in bellingham for 6 months. then move home cause patrick said he could probably move back to omaha by august. i want to be home for the summer so i can take care of my niece and nephew who i miss sooooooooo much. i don't know what to do. everyone keeps telling me i'm young and i can do whatever i want but that's the problem I DONT KNOW! another thing people keep telling me is to follow my heart, but that makes it difficult to do when its torn between two places 1800 miles away. i miss my family a ton but if i leave i'll miss patrick too. if i go home patrick and i might not make it but if i stay i miss out on all the fun stuff i do with my niece and nephew. i know it sounds weird that i'm so influenced by two kids that aren't mine but i'm super close to them and i took care of them all last summer. they're my buddies. but from a financial standpoint it isn't really practical of me to move all my stuff out to washington for 6 months only to move back to omaha. this sucks. i hate making decisions and i'm not sure how much longer i or patrick for that matter can take it.


song lyrics of the day:
so come on and let me know
should i stay or should i go