what makes a date a date?
-reflecting on if last night was a date or not-
is it that there is a kiss at the end?....that didn't happen. is it that one person pays? well i payed for the concert but he bought me a drink....the first time we hung/went out he payed. i didn't get super nervous and there wasn't alot of awkward don't know what to say to each other silences. i was deffinately comfortable on the date because on the way home i was fake interviewing him. yes thats right i was holding the fake microphone while he was talking. the seatbelt didn't hit me in the face like last time. but after the concert i forgot about it and shut the door and was leaning forward and it choked me. so what makes going out with someone a date!? do you have to say let's go on a date? it didn't feel like a date to me but i think it's because i didn't feel awkward. i dunno. i guess if he calls to do something again maybe i'll take that as a sign of he likes me???? i dunno hopefully ben will do his job and go casually mention me to him...if only i could read minds. but have the ability to turn it off so i don't always have to hear it. that would be my super power for sure.

song lyrics of the day
i wanna know
what you're thinking
tell me what's on your mind

so tonight i drove. for those of you who don't know i don't drive. never have. i learned the jeep wave. sorry if you're not in the club i can't tell you. i got a tripod for my video camera cause i have to tape myself teaching--weird i know. but the chick emailed me and told me they are still interested in my application so i guess i have too. tomorrow my niece turns 5. she's getting a swingset (well it's for my nephew too). tomorrow i get my hair cut. aren't you super excited for me!! last night i went out with quinn to meet pat at old chicago. and i have decided i don't like his friends. they aren't the most welcoming group. all the talked about was people they all know/knew and funny stuff they did together or that someone said. like hello graduate high school already! and to make it worst the one girl kept leaning over and whispering to one of the guys and not hiding the fact that she was talking about me or quinn. just say it to my face geez. or at least turn away from us so we can't see you stare. god. get a clue. but i had fun making faces at this little girl who by the way was out waaaayyy too late for a child under 2 to be out. which i guess made the one guy think i was incredibly odd because he kept looking at me funny although i repeatedly told him i'm playing with the little girl behind you. hell it was keeping me from chewing on the metal chair i was sitting in from sheer boredom. i would have rather seen the crappy movie we were planning on going too. at least then i could have made fun of keanau reeves!!

song lyrics of the day:
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way